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Hugs for Haiti! Hugs for Chile, and for everyone in the world.

When you reach the end of your comfort zone, don't sit tight, move on! That seems to be my message at the moment. It was cosy as a couple, now we're three. And although his daughter doesn't live with us, my husband holds her presence in our home.

The whole process is making me grow and mature. As I consider what might be good for her and what's good for all of us, I am forced beyond the restrictions of my own emotional needs. The Bequia diving centre had the motto "Know your limits--and go beyond." I feel like I'm doing that now. What a ride! Whoopee! I can be more!

Die Auswirkung der Stieftochter ist erschütternd. Jedoch nicht im Sinne von einer Katastrophe, sondern wie eine Erneuerung. Meine Welt ist ein Stückchen verschoben worden. Genau wie beim Erdbeben in Chile.

Jetzt hat mein Mann Witze, die sie ihm gezeigt hat. Nicht unbedingt mein Geschmack, aber immerhin, anders. Und das macht Raum für einen neuen Wachstumschub. Ich hatte vergessen, wie es sich anfühlt. Es ist ja berauschend! Hurra!

New week/ vorbei

It was an intense weekend with lots of room for personal growth. Wow. I don't know how I did on the relationship test. All the conflict was in me. The other two did fine and it was a pleasure to witness the success of the meeting.

But it's weird feeling like the odd one out. I can relate to the step-mom dynamic.

It's not as though I'm needy or dependent, but all my insecurities and defense patterns came up. In truth, it's a relief to be back to the routine. I am grateful for my simple life. For the ice along the river, the promising morning glow, for true friends and family and all the people who love me.

Hugs for Haiti.

Manchmal erwarte ich zuviel von mir. Es wäre besser gewesen, los zu lassen, doch wollte ich das richtige tun. Vielleicht braucht man weniger das Gleichgewicht zu suchen als es von alleine einpendeln zu lassen.